Sleep

Last night I had trouble falling asleep. This is not out of the norm as of late. During the day I can  lay down on the couch or sit in a chair and fall asleep within minutes.  But wait till 10:30 or so, when I should be going to sleep, and I just lay there for hours.  During this time last night I started thinking about what I was doing.  It went something like this...

Pull the covers up, and now I am too hot.

Take off one cover, still a little warm.

Stick one leg out of the sheet. Much better.

But now I don't know what to do with my arm. Do I put it over my eyes, let is lay limp at the side, cross it over my chest?

And now my neck hurts.  So I roll onto my side, then that gets uncomfortable, so I switch to my stomach. Only when I do that my arm goes under my head, so it goes to sleep.

There is just no comfortable way to go about falling asleep.

All of this to say, I feel like this right now in my Christian walk.  I think I am doing all the right things. I am trying to be in God's word, love people, share the Gospel and my life with others.  I just feel uncomfortable right now.  Part of it is what I have mentioned several times before; I am still focused on what I can do.  It has nothing to do with my abilities.  What a foreign idea, especially in our culture.  I am also searching and longing to find that place where the gifts God has given me can best be put to use.  So right now, I am praying for comfort and peace.  I am tired of fidgeting back and forth.