The people that happen to read this are probably wondering why such a long silence. I could say it is because my extremely busy schedule, or I was fasting from the internet or some other lame excuse, but ask my mom, she can tell you none of that is true. I have been thinking about why I haven't written. The best answer I have is that I am lazy.
I am lazy for a lot of different reasons. A few weeks ago I started to get burnt out on so much. I was trying so hard to live "right". To read my Bible, to study, to get my homework done. It was good for a while, but like anything else I have ever attempted on my own, it lost its flame. Once that flame was gone I had nothing to lean back on. I had not been seeking help from God. I wanted to do it on my own. So I stopped reading, stopped writing, stopped what I had been doing. I had nothing to write because I was not studying, but also because I was living a life of sin and not a life dependent on God. I understood I had nothing on my own to give.
I am spiritually lazy. I work hard for a short amount of time, but forget to rely on God. Maybe one of these days I will truly realize I need to give ALL of my life to God.
Well, I'm pretty sure the "spiritually lazy" club is bigger than any of us would like to admit ... unfortunately. And, yes, I will vouch for you in your laziness! However, I then have to admit that I have the same struggles. I'm sure most of us reading your post can relate. As Aunt Elaine said, "pretty sure you got all 10 toes!"
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