Plans

I have found myself extremely distracted the last few days.  My future plans, dreams, and goals sitting at the forefront of my mind.  These thoughts have been weighing on me.  My career in ministry and serving in the Army seem to be coming so fast.  It seems as though I have a billion decisions to make regarding both.  Do I try to go active duty? Or guard? Or do I try to apply for seminary and an academic delay from the Army?  And that is just a few of the questions I have to answer before too long. 

I think part of the reason these question are bugging me so much is the responsibility and "grown-upness" that comes with them.  I rather enjoy the minimal responsibility  and fun of college.  The even more weighty issue with the questions is the question that follows: What if I choose wrong? 

These are the things that are plaguing my sleep.  I lay there wondering what my future holds, because it seems to be looming just around the bend.  And then I think to myself, "why are you even worrying?"  Either way I will have a job, or an opportunity for even more training in Bible study and ministry. 

I, like everyone else I know, like to control things.  I want to know what is going to happen in my life.  The problem I am facing is that the more I study and read scripture, the more I am seeing God wants that control.  It is not something new.  Just something I am learning on a more first hand basis.  So today I am praying for help loving God by actually trusting Him and his sovereign plans.